My 4am notes on my Blackberry. (more like journal entries)

I find that everything in this world, ends.
Everything we do is temporary.

From the amateur parties.
To the high feeling you get after drinking.
The flirting comes to an end.
The lighting of a cigarette.
The money you make, disappears as well. Whether you spend it on a burger or your college debt.
The relationships always come to an end, because we dont know what commitment is.
Our “feelings” change, because we’re emotionally unstable. Or, we choose not to “feel” it.

After all is done and your day is over, you find yourself laying in bed at night. Staring at the ceiling, or tossing and turning. Thinking about all the energy you exerted for small pleasures of emotions you chose to feel for the day.

Its exhausting. And it ends.

Once again, I was reminded that this was my life. No one else was living it.
Just me. I allowed myself to be detoured on a pathetic path. But once again, my Father in Heaven pulled me out of my world and showed me the bigger picture. His world. His perspective.

I’m putting my time and my love in things & people that I know will produce good fruit.

My heartache has finally ended.
My daily migraines are now subsiding.
I’m breaking the habit of cursing.

Agape.